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泣いてもいいですか
Oct. 27th, 2009 | 01:28 pm
mood: 
restless
music: Naitemo Iidesuka - Hexagon All Stars
www.youtube.com/watch
今日だけ 泣いてもいいですか。。。
僕らは旅の途中出会った
未完成なままの二人
何故か時々 空見上げるのは
君の心が穏（おだ）やかなとき
笑顔になれるまで 待っている
今日だけ泣いても構わないですか？
明日から泣かずに生きてくから
別れの時が もうすぐ来るんだね
夏の終わりの 夕陽のように
切なく輝く君を 見送る
希望に満ちてる 今日の君
夢が叶いますように
君の陰（かげ）でエールを贈（おく）る
野に咲く花が咲き誇（ほこ）るように
喜びの種（たね）を蒔（ま）くのさ
別れの悲しみ すればするほどに
人は優しく逞（たくま）しい姿
君に出会う為 生まれてきたんだ
でも。。。いいんだ。。。ありがとう
切なく輝く君を 見守る
君と出会った日のこと 忘れやしないよ
優しい自分に出逢えた奇跡も
君が居てくれたから
今日だけ泣いても構わないですか？
明日から泣かずに生きてくから
別れの時が もうすぐ来るんだね
夏の終わりの 夕陽のように
切なく輝く君を
別れの悲しみ すればするほどに
人は優しく逞（たくま）しい姿
君に出会う為 生まれてきたんだ
でも。。。いいんだ。。。ありがとう
切なく輝く君を 見守る
今日だけ 泣いてもいいですか。。。
____________________________
Can I just cry today. . .
We met during the journey
That memory still remains today
Why we look up at the sky
I can see your heart opening up
And waiting to become a smile
Is it okay to cry just now?
It's like living in tomorrow
That time is coming when I say goodbye
As of the end of the summer sunset
You send off a sparkling tear
You're filled with hope today
Just like a dream
Your shadow gave me a little shout out at me
The wild flowers bloom like that seed of joy
The more you say farewell
They gently form a new shape
I was born to see you
. . . But I'm good, thanks
I watch you shine
The first day I met you
It was almost like a miracle
It's all because you were there with me
Is it okay to cry just now?
It's like living in tomorrow
That time is coming when I say goodbye
As of the end of the summer sunset
You send off a sparkling tear
The more you say farewell
They gently form a new shape
I was born to see you
. . . But I'm good, thanks
I watch you shine
Can I just cry today. . .
今日だけ 泣いてもいいですか。。。
僕らは旅の途中出会った
未完成なままの二人
何故か時々 空見上げるのは
君の心が穏（おだ）やかなとき
笑顔になれるまで 待っている
今日だけ泣いても構わないですか？
明日から泣かずに生きてくから
別れの時が もうすぐ来るんだね
夏の終わりの 夕陽のように
切なく輝く君を 見送る
希望に満ちてる 今日の君
夢が叶いますように
君の陰（かげ）でエールを贈（おく）る
野に咲く花が咲き誇（ほこ）るように
喜びの種（たね）を蒔（ま）くのさ
別れの悲しみ すればするほどに
人は優しく逞（たくま）しい姿
君に出会う為 生まれてきたんだ
でも。。。いいんだ。。。ありがとう
切なく輝く君を 見守る
君と出会った日のこと 忘れやしないよ
優しい自分に出逢えた奇跡も
君が居てくれたから
今日だけ泣いても構わないですか？
明日から泣かずに生きてくから
別れの時が もうすぐ来るんだね
夏の終わりの 夕陽のように
切なく輝く君を
別れの悲しみ すればするほどに
人は優しく逞（たくま）しい姿
君に出会う為 生まれてきたんだ
でも。。。いいんだ。。。ありがとう
切なく輝く君を 見守る
今日だけ 泣いてもいいですか。。。
____________________________
Can I just cry today. . .
We met during the journey
That memory still remains today
Why we look up at the sky
I can see your heart opening up
And waiting to become a smile
Is it okay to cry just now?
It's like living in tomorrow
That time is coming when I say goodbye
As of the end of the summer sunset
You send off a sparkling tear
You're filled with hope today
Just like a dream
Your shadow gave me a little shout out at me
The wild flowers bloom like that seed of joy
The more you say farewell
They gently form a new shape
I was born to see you
. . . But I'm good, thanks
I watch you shine
The first day I met you
It was almost like a miracle
It's all because you were there with me
Is it okay to cry just now?
It's like living in tomorrow
That time is coming when I say goodbye
As of the end of the summer sunset
You send off a sparkling tear
The more you say farewell
They gently form a new shape
I was born to see you
. . . But I'm good, thanks
I watch you shine
Can I just cry today. . .
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no-no?!
Oct. 2nd, 2009 | 12:21 am
mood: 
sad
music: Sapuri OST
thanks so much toki for always being there <3333
you make me smile when i don't even want to :D
talking with you makes the world a better place for a moment.
and it makes me happy that you put all your effort in it
i think i can't stand it at the moment to talk to a certain someone...
somehow the wounds are too deep
but i don't know why it hurts still so much...
maybe i should think about my priorities in life...
thx to amy for designing my tattoo <33333
looking forward to it *.*
have to work the whole weekend so minna have a nice weekend ;D
the scars are almost faded...maybe the time to forget about this person has come
"worüber willst du mit mir sprechen?wie schlecht es mir dabei geht dauernd auf dich zu warten?"
(geklaut von hotaru auf mexx "Die Frau des Zeitreisenden" ...aber es passt so gut)
you make me smile when i don't even want to :D
talking with you makes the world a better place for a moment.
and it makes me happy that you put all your effort in it
i think i can't stand it at the moment to talk to a certain someone...
somehow the wounds are too deep
but i don't know why it hurts still so much...
maybe i should think about my priorities in life...
thx to amy for designing my tattoo <33333
looking forward to it *.*
have to work the whole weekend so minna have a nice weekend ;D
the scars are almost faded...maybe the time to forget about this person has come
"worüber willst du mit mir sprechen?wie schlecht es mir dabei geht dauernd auf dich zu warten?"
(geklaut von hotaru auf mexx "Die Frau des Zeitreisenden" ...aber es passt so gut)
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バイト,バイトとバイト？！ 笑
Sep. 27th, 2009 | 01:07 am
mood: 
tired
music: mein tickender wecker
"Lösch die Erinnerung in mir aus...gib meiner Seele ein Zuhaus.."
(Elisabeth Musical : "Der Schleier fällt")
und schon wieder is des WE fast vorbei x.x
so fühlt sichs zumindest an xD
am fr war ich 4h arbeiten,heute 8 und morgen nochmal 7-8h denk ich =)
auch wenn es in letzter zeit nicht so viele gute dinge gegeben hat ,hab ich heute
festgestellt,dass ich mich zumindest meistens auf mich selbst verlassen kann...
ich schaffs mittlerweile ein ganzes restaurant alleine zu leiten ^^
auch wenn ich am anfang megaangst davor hatte gibts mir iwie was =)
aber ich bin grade ganz froh in arbeit und schule zu versinken,so hab ich schon keine zeit
über andere dinge nachzudenken oder mich drüber aufzuregen ^^
heute habn wir nachm arbeiten sogar noch gemütlich n wein mit unseren chefs getrunken <3
kazoku mitai damo *gg*
morgen sind wahlen und ich sollte noch dringend englisch lernen...aber
iwie fehlt mir die zeit ><
vllt mag es falsch sein baito grade vorzuziehen,aber ich muss nächstest jahr wieder nach
japan *.*
sono tame ni ganbaru shika nai!!!
meine mathenachhilfe hat sich auch noch nich gemeldet ><
und danke toki für gestern <33333
es tut gut sich über tondemo nai dinge wie unsre weihnachtspalme,körperbehaarung (LOL) oder
komische beziehungskisten zu unterhalten <3333
thx alot <333333333333
(Elisabeth Musical : "Der Schleier fällt")
und schon wieder is des WE fast vorbei x.x
so fühlt sichs zumindest an xD
am fr war ich 4h arbeiten,heute 8 und morgen nochmal 7-8h denk ich =)
auch wenn es in letzter zeit nicht so viele gute dinge gegeben hat ,hab ich heute
festgestellt,dass ich mich zumindest meistens auf mich selbst verlassen kann...
ich schaffs mittlerweile ein ganzes restaurant alleine zu leiten ^^
auch wenn ich am anfang megaangst davor hatte gibts mir iwie was =)
aber ich bin grade ganz froh in arbeit und schule zu versinken,so hab ich schon keine zeit
über andere dinge nachzudenken oder mich drüber aufzuregen ^^
heute habn wir nachm arbeiten sogar noch gemütlich n wein mit unseren chefs getrunken <3
kazoku mitai damo *gg*
morgen sind wahlen und ich sollte noch dringend englisch lernen...aber
iwie fehlt mir die zeit ><
vllt mag es falsch sein baito grade vorzuziehen,aber ich muss nächstest jahr wieder nach
japan *.*
sono tame ni ganbaru shika nai!!!
meine mathenachhilfe hat sich auch noch nich gemeldet ><
und danke toki für gestern <33333
es tut gut sich über tondemo nai dinge wie unsre weihnachtspalme,körperbehaarung (LOL) oder
komische beziehungskisten zu unterhalten <3333
thx alot <333333333333
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友達って？
Sep. 22nd, 2009 | 08:22 pm
location: Stuttgart
mood: 
thankful
music: youtube AMV - junjou romantica
HAPPY B-DAY NEE-CHAN <333333333333333
schule hat wieder angefangen,real life hat wieder angefangen und zwar in den vollen zügen...
man fragt sich immernoch warum.... *sighs*
aber ich denke ich muss mal ein ganz fettes dankeschön an claudi loswerden:
thx sweety dass du da warst am sonntag und samstag <33333
wüsste nich was ich ohne dich gemacht hätte!!!
danke,dass ich alles mal loswerden durfte <3333333333333
und mit mir die beiden tage verbracht hast :D
thx a lot <3333333
nachdem des WE und des davor nich sehr gut für mein nervenkostüm gelaufen ist kann man sich ja vorstellen wies mir grad geht xD
und ich werde die konsequenz ziehen daraus,dass ich ab sofort nur noch auf südliche cons gehen werde.
weil nochmal den ganzen mist vom we brauch ich nicht denk ich....
aber claudi einmal mach ich dir lizzy...schon allein weil du so für mich da warst an dem tag <3
versprochen ;D
und maru danke dass du dich heute so für mich angestrengt hast <3333
und wenn ich könnte wäre ich jetzt schon bei dir als erst iwann...
wenn man dann auch noch gesagt bekommt,dass man es besser lassen sollte mit dem abi weil
ich es soweiso nicht schaffen würde das matheabi is der tag perfekt...
tut mir leid,dass ich grad so bin wie ich bin...
aber ich weiß nich wo des ganze leben hier grad noch enden soll...
schule hat wieder angefangen,real life hat wieder angefangen und zwar in den vollen zügen...
man fragt sich immernoch warum.... *sighs*
aber ich denke ich muss mal ein ganz fettes dankeschön an claudi loswerden:
thx sweety dass du da warst am sonntag und samstag <33333
wüsste nich was ich ohne dich gemacht hätte!!!
danke,dass ich alles mal loswerden durfte <3333333333333
und mit mir die beiden tage verbracht hast :D
thx a lot <3333333
nachdem des WE und des davor nich sehr gut für mein nervenkostüm gelaufen ist kann man sich ja vorstellen wies mir grad geht xD
und ich werde die konsequenz ziehen daraus,dass ich ab sofort nur noch auf südliche cons gehen werde.
weil nochmal den ganzen mist vom we brauch ich nicht denk ich....
aber claudi einmal mach ich dir lizzy...schon allein weil du so für mich da warst an dem tag <3
versprochen ;D
und maru danke dass du dich heute so für mich angestrengt hast <3333
und wenn ich könnte wäre ich jetzt schon bei dir als erst iwann...
wenn man dann auch noch gesagt bekommt,dass man es besser lassen sollte mit dem abi weil
ich es soweiso nicht schaffen würde das matheabi is der tag perfekt...
tut mir leid,dass ich grad so bin wie ich bin...
aber ich weiß nich wo des ganze leben hier grad noch enden soll...
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"welcome to my life" for my sweet girl tine...our song <3
Sep. 13th, 2009 | 09:16 pm
mood: 
melancholy
music: simple plan - welcome to my life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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Rock my world?
Sep. 4th, 2009 | 06:27 pm
mood: 
crazy
music: Tomte - Es ist so,dass du fehlst
weeeeeeeeeez~
so da mein kopf voll von mineralwasser vom schwimmbad is gibts ma nen eintrag auf deutsch xD
(zu freude deren ,denen mein falsches englisch aufn sack geht....sorry dafür xD~)
was tut die mine grade so außer rumgammeln und buzzer beat anschaun? xD
(OMFG YAMAP *.* an der stelle....ich will die riko rolle habn ><!!!!!!!!!!)
-sich mit maru überlegen wie wir berühmt werden könnten in japan und unsere bishis bekommn xD
(ideenvorschläge sind gerne willkommn =) )
-bei meiner oma abgammeln
-mir junjo romantica noch 11323424 mal geben <33333 (nowaki und hiro => PURE LIEBE *.*)
-sich über jin als yakuza-wanna-be lustig machen (das matrixsterben hat er drauf xD)
-bei der jap. cosplayseite gestalked werden (ALTER ich hab schon die 2. message *.*)
....kommt nur her bishis xD
-auf mr. right den es nich gibt warten
-luftschlösser bauen (wenn ich jetzt 143 millionen hätte..... lol)
-meinen dad verfluchen (HAHA und wenn jetzt nomma einer kommt und meint ich wär egoistisch weiß ich ja woher ichs hab xD)
-keinen bock auf schule haben ,die am 14. wieder losgeht
-unipläne schmieden obwohl ich nich ma weiß ob ichs abi pack xD
(könnte unter luftschlösser laufen xD)
-nachher ins lehmann gehn und uns vorher noch besaufen möglicherweise
(ich sollte mich nich mehr über die bonzenkiddies in meiner schule lustig machen die des jedes WE machen
und sich dabei toll fühln *LOL*)
-frustshoppen mit geld dass sie nich hat (-->LUFTSCHLÖSSER!)
habt spaß man freaked sich XD~
so da mein kopf voll von mineralwasser vom schwimmbad is gibts ma nen eintrag auf deutsch xD
(zu freude deren ,denen mein falsches englisch aufn sack geht....sorry dafür xD~)
was tut die mine grade so außer rumgammeln und buzzer beat anschaun? xD
(OMFG YAMAP *.* an der stelle....ich will die riko rolle habn ><!!!!!!!!!!)
-sich mit maru überlegen wie wir berühmt werden könnten in japan und unsere bishis bekommn xD
(ideenvorschläge sind gerne willkommn =) )
-bei meiner oma abgammeln
-mir junjo romantica noch 11323424 mal geben <33333 (nowaki und hiro => PURE LIEBE *.*)
-sich über jin als yakuza-wanna-be lustig machen (das matrixsterben hat er drauf xD)
-bei der jap. cosplayseite gestalked werden (ALTER ich hab schon die 2. message *.*)
....kommt nur her bishis xD
-auf mr. right den es nich gibt warten
-luftschlösser bauen (wenn ich jetzt 143 millionen hätte..... lol)
-meinen dad verfluchen (HAHA und wenn jetzt nomma einer kommt und meint ich wär egoistisch weiß ich ja woher ichs hab xD)
-keinen bock auf schule haben ,die am 14. wieder losgeht
-unipläne schmieden obwohl ich nich ma weiß ob ichs abi pack xD
(könnte unter luftschlösser laufen xD)
-nachher ins lehmann gehn und uns vorher noch besaufen möglicherweise
(ich sollte mich nich mehr über die bonzenkiddies in meiner schule lustig machen die des jedes WE machen
und sich dabei toll fühln *LOL*)
-frustshoppen mit geld dass sie nich hat (-->LUFTSCHLÖSSER!)
habt spaß man freaked sich XD~
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心の歌 : Silbermond - weg für immer
Aug. 22nd, 2009 | 11:01 pm
location: Stuttgart
mood: 
uncomfortable
Ich hör den Regen wie er leise an mein Fenster schlägt
Die Briefe ungeöffnet haben sich hier gut eingelebt
An meinen Wänden kämpfen Träume gegen Nüchternheit
Und an der Decke machen sich die Fragen breit
Was wäre wenn ich einfach geh
Was, was wäre wenn ich meine sieben Sachen pack
Und verlasse diese Stadt
Alle meine Zelte brech ich ab
Verkaufe was ich hab
Und das Einzige was bleibt
Ist ein Zettel auf den ich schreib
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Für immer
Woran soll ich mich erinnern, woran halt ich mich
Wenn jeder Tag hier nur zum vergessen gut ist
Man muss kein Heiliger sein und auch kein Prophet
Um zu sehn, dass sich für mich hier nichts bewegt
Und wenn ich einfach geh, einfach über Nacht
Verlass ich dieses Land und wein ihm nicht eine Träne nach
Und alle meine Zelte brech ich ab
Verkaufe was ich hab
Und das Einzige was bleibt
ist ein Zettel auf den ich schreib
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Weg, weg für immer
Ich bin weg
Für immer
Für immer, für immer
Ich bin weg
Und ich komm nicht zurück
Das ist kein Abschied auf Zeit
Nein das ist, das ist für die Ewigkeit
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ただいま。。。かな？!
Aug. 18th, 2009 | 11:34 pm
location: Stuttgart
mood: 
lonely
music: kobukuro - stay
i'm back from my terrorzellenvisit in berlin.
it was awesome *.*
(well it is always awesome xDDDDD~)
i had alot of fun with my huggleberryfriend and amy and all the others =)
thank you for letting me always stay @ your apartment <3333333333
it's always a good feeling to have you around me ;DDD
in berlin we went to the körperwelten exhibition..it was quite interesting =)
and we took some cosplay pictures,watched some senseless anime (la corda d'oro!!!)
and stuff like this =)
AND I'VE RECEIVED MY DOLL *_________*
his name is zero because of his white hair and his "sex-on-legs"-look <333
and today i've realized sth ... i'm over someone....
maybe 'cause i don't want to be a part of his world anymore and i finally know that he doesn't care anymore
it took some time ... i know
but then i've realized that there's still someone locked in my heart...
i don't know why you're there again or why i still care...maybe because of the animagic?!
it's awkward i know....but maybe i just realized it now...that you meant more to me than i would've admit
warum kann leben manchmal nich einfacher sein? ><
it was awesome *.*
(well it is always awesome xDDDDD~)
i had alot of fun with my huggleberryfriend and amy and all the others =)
thank you for letting me always stay @ your apartment <3333333333
it's always a good feeling to have you around me ;DDD
in berlin we went to the körperwelten exhibition..it was quite interesting =)
and we took some cosplay pictures,watched some senseless anime (la corda d'oro!!!)
and stuff like this =)
AND I'VE RECEIVED MY DOLL *_________*
his name is zero because of his white hair and his "sex-on-legs"-look <333
and today i've realized sth ... i'm over someone....
maybe 'cause i don't want to be a part of his world anymore and i finally know that he doesn't care anymore
it took some time ... i know
but then i've realized that there's still someone locked in my heart...
i don't know why you're there again or why i still care...maybe because of the animagic?!
it's awkward i know....but maybe i just realized it now...that you meant more to me than i would've admit
warum kann leben manchmal nich einfacher sein? ><
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家族って？
Jul. 18th, 2009 | 07:45 pm
mood: 
disappointed
music: VK AMV on youtube - Alone in this bed
wow i guess we have a new record...first fight after day 4 ....
i'm just so sick of this all....why do you always make them cry ?
and why i'm so numb when it comes to this...?
i don't know
i'm sick of all this screaming, lecturing and talk about the future
you don't know me ...
mum is right you've never cared so why do you think you've got the right now
to complain?
my future...you just care about money that'a all
i don't want you to be proud or make you listening to my problems anymore
i'm tired and my body can't take it anymore
just go...go far away and never come back (haha disney phrase...ironic hm? xD)
i know my life won't end like it does in fairytales but it could be easier but you don't let me as long as i'm and you are here
thanks to julia and maru for listening <3
guess i need a time-out
i'm just so sick of this all....why do you always make them cry ?
and why i'm so numb when it comes to this...?
i don't know
i'm sick of all this screaming, lecturing and talk about the future
you don't know me ...
mum is right you've never cared so why do you think you've got the right now
to complain?
my future...you just care about money that'a all
i don't want you to be proud or make you listening to my problems anymore
i'm tired and my body can't take it anymore
just go...go far away and never come back (haha disney phrase...ironic hm? xD)
i know my life won't end like it does in fairytales but it could be easier but you don't let me as long as i'm and you are here
thanks to julia and maru for listening <3
guess i need a time-out
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修学旅行
Jul. 12th, 2009 | 01:41 pm
mood: tired
music: Boys Like Girls album
i'm back from our studienfahrt to madrid and valencia last week :D
it was a great week even with those bonzenkids ^^
it was hot and the sun shined all day *.*
madrid is a big city with tons of beautiful buildings <3
(but our hostel was .....a flophouse xD without a proper bathroom xDDD)
in valencia we went to the beach and to the aquarium (oceanografico) ...omg it is definetly one of my favourite ones *.*
the dolphin show was awesome *.*
--> so the week was really fun with choco (and the flausmieder xDDD) and the others
and omg i'm broke from all the shopping we did ^^"
(hard rock cafe and madrid city was full of great clothes <3) -->SALE!!!!
next week is BOGY in our class level so i'm alone at school in grade 11 -___-"
and on wednesday my brother and my father come home ....well i can't say i'm really happy about that my dad is coming home...
it's gonna be strange and stressful the next two weeks for sure x.x
and i still haven't start with my konoe cosplay...and i don't feel like doing it ><
from august 4th 'til 18th i'm in berlin :D
lately i come to think that some friendships became weird ...do they still care or not?
i still wanna leave this place and go on my trip around the world ....
but i just can't keep on running away from my life hm? ><
but i'm so sick of all this x.x
looking forward to my summer vacations <33333
watching drama all the time and anime *.*
tomorrow i've gotta go to the hairdresser ^^
and i'm afraid i can't go to japan next year cause the money will not be enough >_________<
but maybe a wonder will happen xDDDD
it was a great week even with those bonzenkids ^^
it was hot and the sun shined all day *.*
madrid is a big city with tons of beautiful buildings <3
(but our hostel was .....a flophouse xD without a proper bathroom xDDD)
in valencia we went to the beach and to the aquarium (oceanografico) ...omg it is definetly one of my favourite ones *.*
the dolphin show was awesome *.*
--> so the week was really fun with choco (and the flausmieder xDDD) and the others
and omg i'm broke from all the shopping we did ^^"
(hard rock cafe and madrid city was full of great clothes <3) -->SALE!!!!
next week is BOGY in our class level so i'm alone at school in grade 11 -___-"
and on wednesday my brother and my father come home ....well i can't say i'm really happy about that my dad is coming home...
it's gonna be strange and stressful the next two weeks for sure x.x
and i still haven't start with my konoe cosplay...and i don't feel like doing it ><
from august 4th 'til 18th i'm in berlin :D
lately i come to think that some friendships became weird ...do they still care or not?
i still wanna leave this place and go on my trip around the world ....
but i just can't keep on running away from my life hm? ><
but i'm so sick of all this x.x
looking forward to my summer vacations <33333
watching drama all the time and anime *.*
tomorrow i've gotta go to the hairdresser ^^
and i'm afraid i can't go to japan next year cause the money will not be enough >_________<
but maybe a wonder will happen xDDDD
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ありがとう
Jun. 1st, 2009 | 01:37 am
mood: thankful
music: simple plan - welcome to my life
tonight i have to say thanks :
-to maru,tine and coco for having a nice evening while eating choco fondue
-to tine : 'cause you were there over 10 years now and you're still listen to my stories,
feelings, going with me through ups and downs and you've never complained about it <3333
i know you can do it ;D (u know what i mean^^)
live your dreams babe, 'cause u know if you don't you'll be unhappy all the time...
i'll do the best for you i can
so don't you dare give up...you know..i'm always there if you need me ;D
and i love your crazy ideas like going to the cinema in the middle of the night (like today)
or singing in your car to our songs :D
so thank you very much <3333333
-to maru,tine and coco for having a nice evening while eating choco fondue
-to tine : 'cause you were there over 10 years now and you're still listen to my stories,
feelings, going with me through ups and downs and you've never complained about it <3333
i know you can do it ;D (u know what i mean^^)
live your dreams babe, 'cause u know if you don't you'll be unhappy all the time...
i'll do the best for you i can
so don't you dare give up...you know..i'm always there if you need me ;D
and i love your crazy ideas like going to the cinema in the middle of the night (like today)
or singing in your car to our songs :D
so thank you very much <3333333
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it's time...
May. 27th, 2009 | 05:36 pm
mood: 
amused
music: BLEACH 2nd OPENING
...for a new entry *lol*
what happend so far in the last month until now?
hmm...i've turned 20 (suprise suprise xD)...say goodbye to youth da ne xD
i didn't celebrate it or sth like that...i've spent the day at school and afterwards sleeping with my dog next to me =)
guess i should've had more friends in this town ...shouganai xD
beside this i'm having pfingstferien for two weeks now *______*
yosh i really needed to get away from those spoiled brats ^_____^
oh and i've made plans for the next year...after graduation i'm going to japan for a couple of weeks <3
(with julia if she still wants to go with me next year xDD)
this summer i'm going to make my usual terrorzellen-visit in berlin and then maybe taking my driving licence ^^
but before this there is still our studienfahrt to madrid and animagic left.
still need a cosplay for friday though ><
if u have any ideas..let me know ;D
tonight i have to work and tomorrow hopefully (XD) is the same ^^
MONEY MONEY *____*
and toki i guess we broke our telephone record xD
5 hours xDDDD
'til 4:30 am LOL
we're getting better at it xD
thx to maru,julia,toki....nado for always listening <3333333
what happend so far in the last month until now?
hmm...i've turned 20 (suprise suprise xD)...say goodbye to youth da ne xD
i didn't celebrate it or sth like that...i've spent the day at school and afterwards sleeping with my dog next to me =)
guess i should've had more friends in this town ...shouganai xD
beside this i'm having pfingstferien for two weeks now *______*
yosh i really needed to get away from those spoiled brats ^_____^
oh and i've made plans for the next year...after graduation i'm going to japan for a couple of weeks <3
(with julia if she still wants to go with me next year xDD)
this summer i'm going to make my usual terrorzellen-visit in berlin and then maybe taking my driving licence ^^
but before this there is still our studienfahrt to madrid and animagic left.
still need a cosplay for friday though ><
if u have any ideas..let me know ;D
tonight i have to work and tomorrow hopefully (XD) is the same ^^
MONEY MONEY *____*
and toki i guess we broke our telephone record xD
5 hours xDDDD
'til 4:30 am LOL
we're getting better at it xD
thx to maru,julia,toki....nado for always listening <3333333
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tagged by julia <3
May. 12th, 2009 | 10:33 pm
mood: 
sick
Person AKANISHI JIN
1. Do you like this person?
yeah baby
2. How do you call this person?
sex on legs
3. Which color do you associate with this person?
eto...maybe black? because he wears it often
4. This question got eaten by Min D: ... or ran away while watching Yunho dancing |D
5. Looking at his/her character, what blood type do you think he/she has?
O...'cause i know it xD
6. What do you want to tell that person?
MARRY ME?XD
7. What do you want to do with this person: hug, kiss or shake hands?
who doesn't want to get a kiss from him?! :D
1. Do you like this person?
yeah baby
2. How do you call this person?
sex on legs
3. Which color do you associate with this person?
eto...maybe black? because he wears it often
4. This question got eaten by Min D: ... or ran away while watching Yunho dancing |D
5. Looking at his/her character, what blood type do you think he/she has?
O...'cause i know it xD
6. What do you want to tell that person?
MARRY ME?XD
7. What do you want to do with this person: hug, kiss or shake hands?
who doesn't want to get a kiss from him?! :D
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逢いたい
May. 1st, 2009 | 12:16 am
mood: 
nostalgic
music: ゆず 逢いたい
最近皆元気していますか？
春は最後に来たね。
こち桜も咲いてる、何か嬉しいと懐かしい感じをする。
日本には今どうだろうね。
後ちょっともう日本から帰ってきた時一年間になるね。
早いです、本当に。
最近学校にあまりいい事がなくて、家も同じで日本にいった時を思い出した。
本当に良かったですね。
今の生き方を止めて、またそのいい感じで生きていたい。
でも頑張るしかないでしょう。
しょうがない。起こっても変わらないね。
だからごめん。
来週は花見だね。
すごく楽しみにしています。
最近バイトがあまりなくて、困ります。
友達は皆バラバラになちゃったね。
何か残念だと思う。
けど人生はそう言うもんだ。
今を考えるといい友達はいっぱいいるけど特別な人はいない。
ただ一人の最高の友達はいなくなった。
いつからそのほうになったのかな。
よく分からないです。
私が変わったかな？
春は最後に来たね。
こち桜も咲いてる、何か嬉しいと懐かしい感じをする。
日本には今どうだろうね。
後ちょっともう日本から帰ってきた時一年間になるね。
早いです、本当に。
最近学校にあまりいい事がなくて、家も同じで日本にいった時を思い出した。
本当に良かったですね。
今の生き方を止めて、またそのいい感じで生きていたい。
でも頑張るしかないでしょう。
しょうがない。起こっても変わらないね。
だからごめん。
来週は花見だね。
すごく楽しみにしています。
最近バイトがあまりなくて、困ります。
友達は皆バラバラになちゃったね。
何か残念だと思う。
けど人生はそう言うもんだ。
今を考えるといい友達はいっぱいいるけど特別な人はいない。
ただ一人の最高の友達はいなくなった。
いつからそのほうになったのかな。
よく分からないです。
私が変わったかな？
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changes?
Apr. 6th, 2009 | 12:06 am
mood: amused
music: Akon - Lonely
life is changing so fast...things in life are changing so fast..
now i'm working in a japanese restaurant and after 2 days there are finally spring holidays.
and then soon it's hanami <3
gosh i'm looking so forward to meet anna again and do our offical first cosplay together *__*
it's gonna be more than good ^^
maybe until my abi next year the time will pass with the same speed as it does now?^^
wish me luck ...wanna move to berlin next year =)
if anyone volunteers to have a wg with me ...please contact me xDDDD
and after the shock (mizushima hiro married the singer ayaka on februrary 22nd)
i'm sure my huggleberryfriend...WE WILL FIND OUR HP!!!
think i'm gonna receive a call from someone in a few minutes so i'll write another time ^^
oysumi <3
now i'm working in a japanese restaurant and after 2 days there are finally spring holidays.
and then soon it's hanami <3
gosh i'm looking so forward to meet anna again and do our offical first cosplay together *__*
it's gonna be more than good ^^
maybe until my abi next year the time will pass with the same speed as it does now?^^
wish me luck ...wanna move to berlin next year =)
if anyone volunteers to have a wg with me ...please contact me xDDDD
and after the shock (mizushima hiro married the singer ayaka on februrary 22nd)
i'm sure my huggleberryfriend...WE WILL FIND OUR HP!!!
think i'm gonna receive a call from someone in a few minutes so i'll write another time ^^
oysumi <3
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happiness?
Mar. 24th, 2009 | 11:36 pm
mood: 
nervous
music: Way Back into Love
さしぶりだね。。。こちに書くと。
最近色々な事があったね。
私は普通の生活に戻って来ました。
まるちゃんとよく遊んだり、買い物に行ったり、友達と話したり、バイトを探したり、学
そのままでいいじゃないの気持ちがあるだ。
これで次の1年間半に頑張れる気がする。
色々な人に言われて あんたが必要とか 新しい力が生まれるじゃないと思う。
i like talking to maru 'til 5 o'clock in the morning, i like partying with u alot ^^
i like to talk to toki on the phone with all the little flirt things xD
i like being in my japanese class just for talking to you guys
i like going to school because of just having fun with my girls <3
i still do miss japan and my friends there but somehow i will definetly go back ^^
i'm afraid of the "probearbeiten" tomorrow x.x
it would be so great if i'll get the job *_____*
wish me luck xD ~
so good night to you guys <3
PS: wanna cosplay kuroshitsuji *______*
最近色々な事があったね。
私は普通の生活に戻って来ました。
まるちゃんとよく遊んだり、買い物に行ったり、友達と話したり、バイトを探したり、学
そのままでいいじゃないの気持ちがあるだ。
これで次の1年間半に頑張れる気がする。
色々な人に言われて あんたが必要とか 新しい力が生まれるじゃないと思う。
i like talking to maru 'til 5 o'clock in the morning, i like partying with u alot ^^
i like to talk to toki on the phone with all the little flirt things xD
i like being in my japanese class just for talking to you guys
i like going to school because of just having fun with my girls <3
i still do miss japan and my friends there but somehow i will definetly go back ^^
i'm afraid of the "probearbeiten" tomorrow x.x
it would be so great if i'll get the job *_____*
wish me luck xD ~
so good night to you guys <3
PS: wanna cosplay kuroshitsuji *______*
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いい思い出
Mar. 11th, 2009 | 12:30 am
mood: melancholy
music: 花ざかりの君たちへSP
今日いい事を思い出した。。。
この一年前日出学校の卒業式があったね。
皆がここの時からバラバラになちゃって、でも今までこの楽しい時を忘れなくて良かった
私もそんなすてきな卒業式をしたいだ。
早く卒業したい。
新しい生活をはじまりたいです。
夢はいつかかなえるかどうかは知らないけど、ただ幸せになりたいです。
たかと、卒業おめでとうね。
友達に心配をかけちゃって、ごめんね。
私はそろそろまた自分の道に戻るわ。
恋愛はもイヤ-ダになちゃったからさ。。。でも私の美少年はどこか待ってるから。。。
あきらめないつもりです。
では皆おやすみ。
この一年前日出学校の卒業式があったね。
皆がここの時からバラバラになちゃって、でも今までこの楽しい時を忘れなくて良かった
私もそんなすてきな卒業式をしたいだ。
早く卒業したい。
新しい生活をはじまりたいです。
夢はいつかかなえるかどうかは知らないけど、ただ幸せになりたいです。
たかと、卒業おめでとうね。
友達に心配をかけちゃって、ごめんね。
私はそろそろまた自分の道に戻るわ。
恋愛はもイヤ-ダになちゃったからさ。。。でも私の美少年はどこか待ってるから。。。
あきらめないつもりです。
では皆おやすみ。
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your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Feb. 27th, 2009 | 12:03 am
mood: restless
first of all i want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my huggleberryfriend <33333
wish you that all your dreams are coming true, a lot of hairparties,
a great time in japan
and much love and fun =)
have a nice day <33333
_________________________________
and then i wanna say thanks to dani, who took me to the musical "wicked" on wednesday night..
you're right i couldn't bear it to be alone at this time...so thx <3
and then thanks to anna who's organising all our sbp-cos =)
i'm looking so forward to it *____*
hanami is finally saved ^^
_____________________________
i thought alot these days about some things and i guess it's finally time to say goodbye.
i'm not always the person to wreak your bad temper on...
you kicked me out of your life...then why should i have the strength to come back now?
at least i don't think u want me back in there ...
if you don't care anymore then it's time to do the same i guess...
there are things i'm feeling for you now which i thought i could never have...
and it is not very hard to tell i think...
wish you that all your dreams are coming true, a lot of hairparties,
a great time in japan
and much love and fun =)
have a nice day <33333
_________________________________
and then i wanna say thanks to dani, who took me to the musical "wicked" on wednesday night..
you're right i couldn't bear it to be alone at this time...so thx <3
and then thanks to anna who's organising all our sbp-cos =)
i'm looking so forward to it *____*
hanami is finally saved ^^
_____________________________
i thought alot these days about some things and i guess it's finally time to say goodbye.
i'm not always the person to wreak your bad temper on...
you kicked me out of your life...then why should i have the strength to come back now?
at least i don't think u want me back in there ...
if you don't care anymore then it's time to do the same i guess...
there are things i'm feeling for you now which i thought i could never have...
and it is not very hard to tell i think...
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ein kompliment
Feb. 22nd, 2009 | 11:20 am
mood: 
happy
Wenn man so will,
bist du das Ziel einer langen Reise.
Die Perfektion der besten Art und Weise,
in stillen Momenten leise,
die Schaumkrone der Woge der Begeisterung,
bergauf, mein Antrieb und Schwung.
Ich wollte dir nur mal eben sagen,
dass du das Größte für mich bist,
und sichergehen, ob du denn dasselbe für mich fühlst,
für mich fühlst
Wenn man so will,
bist du meine Chill-Out Area,
meine Feiertage in jedem Jahr,
meine Süßwarenabteilung im Supermarkt.
Die Lösung, wenn mal was hakt,
so wertvoll, dass man es sich gerne aufspart,
und so schön, dass man nie darauf verzichten mag. (Sportfreunde Stiller - ein kompliment) omg yesterday was so damn much fun *____________* finally i came to the conclusion that partying with the girls is the best thing <3333 HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENE!!!!! was so glad that i've met feli again and that we had the chance to talk again =) yesterday i talked to anna and yuki again and i have finally the feeling that all is turning into the better ^^ friday i went with vicky and ina to the visu (k)night =) i met beli and lisa there .. it was really fun and there were so much girls dressed as gothic lolitas <3333 on wednesday i'm going to go to the wicked musical here in stuttgart with dani =) and today i'm going to eat dinner with my mummy and my sis at our favourite chinese restaurant *___* !!!!AWG!!!! maru you're really right =)
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don't want to do this anymore.
Feb. 17th, 2009 | 06:50 pm
mood: 
infuriated
f**k u world.
thanks for your attention.
thanks for your attention.